Sunday, December 16, 2012

All Mine

It's amazing to me how one pregnancy can differ from another, yet be so similar.  Here are a few of the things that have been the same:

1. Happy and relieved to be expecting
2. Difficult to keep it a secret
3. The relief of hearing the heartbeat for the first time
4. Spending the first months feeling awful
5. Nerve-wracking ultrasounds/tests
6. The anticipation that comes with not knowing the gender
7. The excitement over feeling the first kicks and movements

While so much has been the same, there is definitely something different about this time around.  I think a lot has to do with the fact that we don't plan on doing this again.  During the first few months, that was something I was thankful for.  Now, I'm making sure to enjoy all the amazing things about being pregnant, knowing it is probably the last time.
I think I feel a different bond with this baby because I know who is making all the movements.  With the girls, I never knew who was who.  Was that Baby A or Baby B?  Expecting just one baby has definitely made the second time around feel like a new experience. 
This isn't necessarily different, but I am more aware and appreciative that the baby is all mine (for now).  I am solely responsible for his or her well-being.  In-return for all that responsibility, I get to feel all the little kicks and flutters.  When I'm up all alone in the middle of the night; the baby keeps me company.  When the girls are being difficult; the baby will give a little kick, making me feel better.  When the baby arrives, there will be plenty of people to share him or her with; for now, he or she is all mine and I like it that way.

I am anxious for this baby to arrive so that we can finally be sure that he or she is healthy.  At the same time, I'm glad for the two months we have left. I'm sure the holidays, the girls' 2nd birthday, a couple of parties and our busy schedule will make the time go quickly. 
I didn't get moments like this the first time around, either.

2 comments:

  1. When did you stop feeling sick? I'm 7 and a half weeks with my first, and I'm having a hard time being excited because I feel so terrible! :(

    Any helpful tips?

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  2. Congratulations!

    Unfortunately, I felt terrible for the first 4 months. After that, I slowly started to get back to normal and only threw-up if I let myself get too hungry. It's been about a month and half since I've had any problems related to nausea.

    I wish I had something really helpful to share, but I just ate a lot of carbs. They settled my stomach more than anything else. Luckily all the throwing up kept me from packing on too many pounds. Sour candy also helped a bit, which was a tip from a friend. Don't worry if you're spending all your free time on the couch...I would have stayed on mine all day if I could have. Good Luck!!!

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